bad habits die hard
I think I have a problem. What started as a thing I only do when I get nervous or scared have become something that I do almost constantly. So much, it's ridiculous. Now it's become a full-fledged habit. A bad one, at that. No, I don't smoke. I pull out my hair.
And I think it's beginning to show, if you know what I mean. This is really unhealthy and I don't know how to stop. I'd be watching TV and 5 minutes in, my hand would be up my head. I'd be doing homework and minutes later, they'd be a scary amount of hair on the floor. I could give out hundreds of other examples but I don't think that it's necessary.
One time, I even considered shaving my head so I could stop it. Though that idea probably won't go down too well with the people around me. So, I thought maybe I'd do it after I graduate and live like Quasimodo until it grows back out. But that was around the time when Britney shaved her head. Now I think it's a stupid idea.
If anyone out there know what I can do to stop this, please, do tell me. Sometimes I don't even realize that I'm doing it and that is scary.
I also used to crack my knuckles obsessively, which probably annoyed a lot of people. But that's the thing about these habits. You don't know you're doing them. I sort of don't do it very much anymore though. Crack my knuckles. Because well, I realized one day that my fingers were suddenly crooked. Like weird-looking crooked. Scared the shit out of me. Now, they're less crooked than they were a couple of years ago.
This current habit, I haven't done much to stop it but well, I'm trying to. Really. It's just hard.
And I think it's beginning to show, if you know what I mean. This is really unhealthy and I don't know how to stop. I'd be watching TV and 5 minutes in, my hand would be up my head. I'd be doing homework and minutes later, they'd be a scary amount of hair on the floor. I could give out hundreds of other examples but I don't think that it's necessary.
One time, I even considered shaving my head so I could stop it. Though that idea probably won't go down too well with the people around me. So, I thought maybe I'd do it after I graduate and live like Quasimodo until it grows back out. But that was around the time when Britney shaved her head. Now I think it's a stupid idea.
If anyone out there know what I can do to stop this, please, do tell me. Sometimes I don't even realize that I'm doing it and that is scary.
I also used to crack my knuckles obsessively, which probably annoyed a lot of people. But that's the thing about these habits. You don't know you're doing them. I sort of don't do it very much anymore though. Crack my knuckles. Because well, I realized one day that my fingers were suddenly crooked. Like weird-looking crooked. Scared the shit out of me. Now, they're less crooked than they were a couple of years ago.
This current habit, I haven't done much to stop it but well, I'm trying to. Really. It's just hard.
Labels: habits
[ by jos at 7:55 PM ] 5 comments
5 Comments:
I had this habit of cracking my knuckles when I was in high school. One of my teachers once really scolded about it, and how bad it looked to the other person, from then on I have been very cautious not to crack, I think being conscious about it helps a lot, just try to stop as soon as you realize you are doing it, it will help you slowly to stop doing it
Pulling out your hair is a psychological condition called trichotillomania.
Diagnostic criteria for Trichotillomania:
A. Recurrent pulling out of one's hair resulting in noticeable hair loss.
B. An increasing sense of tension immediately before pulling out the hair or when attempting to resist the behavior.
C. Pleasure, gratification, or relief when pulling out the hair.
D. The disturbance is not better accounted for by another mental disorder and is not due to a general medical condition.
E. The disturbance causes clinically significant distress or imapirment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.
rambler - yeah, i guess that's the problem with me. i never realize that im doing it until someone tells me that im doing it. i'll definitely work on it more. to you know, know when im doing it.
silver - woah. i never knew it's a psychological condition. big word. that actually got me a little scared...
ui jos~~ mesti mau bagi komen dalam english ka ni? tak semestinya la ba kan~~ ganjil pula kalau type in english dlm blog ko.macam nda personal.. actually, yg tarik tarik rambut tu, sy pun ada ba tu condition tu, trichotillomania. dulu lagi lagi teruk la~mmg ada bald spot suda ni.. sampai time tidur pun, sy tarik juga. mcam sy rasa dia dalam calm sy down bah, time teda2 pa2 mau buat, subconsciously tarik tarik rambut..sy pun bimbang, jadi botak nnt.. sy rasa, yala.. ko mesti trus stop bila ko sedar ur doing it. n tell the ppl around u to tell u to stop too, if they c u doin it.lama2 ok tu~ ko sendiri pun mesti disiplin mau stop la~ bah, all the best ah. tp, sy tingu rambut ko masih lebat n sihat lagi tu~ so, pelihara la bagus bagus~ :)
cis. ko mengulu ka ni? kasi seja bah pa bahasa ko mo. se paham jg bah tu. cis.
hmm.. tarik masa tdur tu se tia la. sbb tangan se lebih suka berehat kali masa tdur. tp ya, se sdg mo stop la ni. klu se sedar se sdg buat se akan stop la. tp most the time, se tia sedar. that's the problem.
lebat and sihat ko blang. tingu la skijap lagi jadi la tu style tangga macam tu org kemarin cause se tarik on side only. huhu..
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